yay!!1 i love this feeling! i feel so happy i could explode, even though i'm kinda bord here all by my lonesome but still i can still enjoy the sunsine and the shiney feeings in my tummy!
i can't even remember when was the ast time icould just be and be content with just laying down in the grass and look up at the sun untill sunset and then enjoy the painting that mother earth creates for us every evening. in the past weeks i've come to relize that i'm soo lucky to be blessd with all my wonderfull friends and all the spech ppl that make my life worth living.
i've also been thinking about suicide and how its made me feel in the past and how it would make me feel if it happend again to someone i cared about and i knew i could never deal with it, so i've decided that i will never alow myself to get distracted by silly thing over the ppl i care about in there times of need. and i also relized that if i ever decide to try it again then i would not try to get outta my problems the easy way out and i woud just call my best freind cause i know she'll allways be there for me. i love u babes! and know i'm here for u 24/7. no one think this is a sad entry cause its not, its my relization that life is much too pressious to lose or to throw away.

i can't wait till i get back soo i can give u all BIG HUGS
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